My journey so far…

ok.. hard to say how I feel today. Actually today was a good day. Ah.. I didn’t ment to talk in lyrics btw.. Th ebook I’m reading at the moment is ‘message in a bottle’ by Sparks. I already got goosebumps by page 80 or so.. I didn’t feel well the last weeks. A burn pout syndrome had been certified by the doc. No wonder, when working 14hour shifts, six days a week for 8 weeks. I can not sleep. I dream weird stuff (mostly about work) it’s haunting me. I wake up at night way too often and I used to have a like death deep sleep. Got to much to carry with me at the moment. Mostly I just wanna leave and go back home. By home I mean Canada. Yes, for those who know me better than just this little letters, I am Canadian. It doesn’T matter what you guys think about this. Just because I don’t own a Canadian citizenship it doesn’t mean .. Ah ok.. I’m driftin’…

What I actually wanted to tell is that I began to read to Chipsy and Lilith (my two kids, meaning my cats) and the two of them really enjoying it! Sitting in my readingchair one of the kids next to me the other onmy bed facing me while I speak the words aloud. this is amazing. I really enjoy this. I gonna read to them until I fall asleep tonight. Maybe that’s bringing me bac to sleep.. (not believing) it’s midnight and I feel like I just had been out of bed. (Awake since 7am) weird.

love is mainly built by the attraction from one to another. IT doesn’T matter how it comes up to that, especially not in what way it hits you. Live showed me way to often it’s way of curiousity. This is making me insane.

-J

could I make my dreams come true?!

Got some new music “Mackenzie 1st” from Canada:) Just cause Dave (leadsinger) got to me via lastfm. So check them out at: www.mackenzie1st.com I like their sound:) Whatever… To tell you about one of my lastest entries:

When I close my eyes there’s always the abillity to be completely anywhere else but not here. I close my eyes and smell the salty air of Van. I close my eyes and inthe very next moment I’m sitting at Mont Royal watching live rpg. I close my eyes and see myself happily dancing in the sunrise.

I want to leave. But, stand by me. I need some advice.

Want to cry.

-J

Yes.. he’S coming! …. Dashbaord confessional is coming into town.. and it’s not even christmas! Yeah… I can’T wait for it… XO!

I believe in you so much.. I could die for the words that you say..

-J

I just wanted to say one thing to that EP title of MCS.. Cause I think it’s a pretty cool idea to call thatEP “I am the Movie”. To me that meams following: If live was a Movie and we are the actors… And I’m the leading role in “My Movie” than ‘I am the Movie’ don’t I? Whatsoever, I like it

Today is my ‘Party day’ ..I’m giving a party for my buddys (especially for my removal helpers) So lot’S to prepare today (Figerfood buffet.. Ah, I love cooking for my friends Foodshopping, NOW!:-) (Wanna join?!:-) )

-J