Filed under: Lyrics
When he was seeing her
You could see he had his doubts
And now he’s missing her
Because he knows he’s missing out
Now it’s haunting him
The memories like a ghost
He’s so terrified
Cause no one else even comes close
He’s a guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake that he made back then
I owe it all to my girl’s ex-boyfriend
So then, along comes me,
This undeserving mess (undeserving mess)
Who would believe my life
Would be so blessed (life would be so blessed)
Two years ago
He left all that debris (left all that debris)
Who would of known
It would be everything I need
He’s a guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake that he made back then
I owe it all to my girl’s ex-boyfriend
If it wasn’t for him
I would still be searching
If it wasn’t for him
I wouldn’t know my best friend
If it wasn’t for him
He would be able to see
If it wasn’t for him
He would be as happy as me
She and I settled down you can bet
That he is going to have to settle for less
He’s someone that I would hate to be
I got the girl and he’s left with just the memory.
He’s a guy that you should feel sorry for
He had the world but he thought that he wanted more
I owe it all to the mistake that he made back then
I owe it all to my girl’s ex-boyfriend
If it wasn’t for him
I would still be searching
If it wasn’t for him
I wouldn’t know my best friend
If it wasn’t for him
He would be able to see
If it wasn’t for him
He would be as happy as me
Thk y thms fr tllng m. b my scp:-)
I wrote you tons of letters
and in my phantasy you answered all of them.
I don’T love you but
I want the hell to know who you are.
I just waited every single second today
just to read sth of you.
And when I came by, you left.
No you.
But in my phantasy, you ansered it all.
Why don’T you just drop dead?
Edit: Fix me if you can.. There is nothing between us than air..
Everyday I just wait for a single second to spend with you…
(City of Angels..)
Filed under: Lyrics
Just bought billy talent II today .. needed it. FOB made me sad. Because it reminds me of yesterday.. look at me as you look trough me.. thank you… I know you didn’T. I know you _saw_ And I liked the words which came out of your eyes… So I miss you.. Too cruel for me.
Fallen leaves helps me dealing with it. Figured Relient K out today.. Thjey are somehow like Keane.. I like it.. getting the cd soon..:) Hopefully I’m getting better. Vampires haunt me.
-J
Filed under: emo
…makes me sad. mad. y? Catching the eye tons of times and still alone. Where r u? And y r u not here, -with me. miss your heartbeat and your arms.. So.. _who_ is you? Will I ever find you? Help me, save me before I fade away.. free me, before I fall.. love me.
Filed under: Daily life
I’m freakin’ back! hehe 
actually it was more than 19 days but I just thought I take the nukbers of my date of birth.. 
Sooo.. what did I do the whole freakin’ time? As you may read, I went to FOB yesterda, which was pretty amazing and I already miss the “sound of music” for the next couple of month..:( It’s just not the same hearing them on cd than hearing them live.. It makes my heart heavy thinking of that this was the last time for this year I had such a freakin’ good time since there are no real concerts inthis area..:-( … K, I gonna go to sugarplum Fairy in WEd but that’S simply not the same.. Well anyway.. You wanted to know what I did all my time off, right?
I basically did nothing more than sleep, work and making my new appartment comfy. It’s not as I want it yet but I’m pushing it forward:) So gimme some more weeks and I will be pretty happy. (Come visit!!!) Sigh k what else? I got my final exam! Yah.. To all of you who already knew I’ll make it and giving me the strenght to hold on, thank you! Two years back in time I would have never thought of having such amazing friends. There was a time I could lay down and cry.. And today -a month after I can smile and say -I fucking made it! And I’m proud of myself. My daddyalso said he’S proud of me doing sucha god job with my life always straigt and ready for the next fight to win:) (Love u… You’re my rock! or- You ROCK my world.. ) K… well there were a lot of little things which made my days since I’m here, but just too much to cover it.. I feel pretty well over here.. I love mynew appartment, Lilith and Chipsy (my cats) are feelign well as well (Aren’T the y cut sleeping next to me.. ahhhhhh.. *kisskiss*) and I’m pretty ready for all new stuff to come. Get me a boyfriend, get me a privat live back again.. All my friends say I’m looking better and seem happier since I moved. They are simply right.
thanks for today *bow*
-J
Incredible, awesome .. this makes my heart beat(so I can love you…) oh yah, yah, I’m back btw… Don’T take me too serious lately.. But this concert had been one of the best I’ve ever been to! “Golden” from their new record was just making me goosebumps on my skin.. hehe I just had to shout out loud a “wuhuuuuuuu!) When all the place was quiet (well, kind of.. it was a concert right..?!) It was also fabulous that Pete said sth about “those girls” I don’t belong to… ok.. I better head for bed now.. gonna continue this tomorrow(later on..) have to sleep.. and sink in my sweetest dreams ever of a concert I own for myself for the rest of my live.. Thanx guys..
XOXO,
-J
