Filed under: Lyrics
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels all right
You don’t know what it’s like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you’re bleeding
No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels all right
You don’t know what it’s like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy but I’m not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don’t know what it’s like, what it’s like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like (what it’s like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
-J
(fucking sad mood)
Filed under: Daily life
Yieha.. so I turned another year older.. Feels good so far. I got tons of sms from my friends and also from ppl I haven’T talked in a while or even haven’t had their phonenumber anymore.. Feels pretty amazing how many ppl thought of me today:)
I also had my final exam, which was quite ok, in about 4 to 6 weeks I know more about how it went.. until then I woun’T hopefully think about it anymore;) Sooooooo, I gonna go out tonight dancin’ drinkin’ and maybe also having some fun… *g*
-J
Filed under: Daily life
Wuhuuuuuuuu what a fucking great concert.. I did a video as well (more to come quite busy today…) I loved it.. it makes me immideatedly wanna go back home to ca. Still searching for my emo..
-J
English Version:
German Version:
GReat, isn’T it?!:))
-J
Filed under: Daily life
Fallen in love. Curious feeling. Haven’t felt for so long. Know him for ages.. haven’T thought this will happen. Don’T know how to act further than I do now. Hmmmmmm, what you sayyyyyyy, Hmmm what you say.. or did you only ment when.. This is so weird. I’m pretty much confused about his acting. Well, my fault. I’m a weird person as well..;) Once he tried so hard but I couldn’T get over s.o. to whom I live and see with great distance and knowledge now. So, God, you owe me a 2nd chance, don’T ya? I learned to be happy alone now. So I’m able to be happy together. Give his love back to me. …
- J
I don’T wanna wait for our lives to be over.. -Paula Cole..
Filed under: Daily life
Passion. Passion an sich ist ja etwas wunderbares. Und für gewöhnlich gibt man sich ihr auch mit Haut und Haar hin. Vorallem einer Passion die evtl. lange gehegt udn nie ausgelebt wurde. Man bekommt die Chance etwas damit anzufangen. Und dann.. nutzt man sie nicht. Ja, geht es denn offensichtlicher? Da kann man sich nur in sich selbst zurückziehen und darüber nachsinnen, was man nun schonwieder alsch gemacht hat. Da öffnet man sich udn wirft alle Zweifel über Bord; nur um dann festzustellen, dass sie berechtigt waren? Man was für ne beschissene Idee ist das denn? Es ist jedenfalls nicht zuviel verlangt, sich auch mal anzustrengen. Man kann sich schliesslich nicht immer auf dem Silbertablett servieren. Wäre doch schon weng arg einfach. Ratlosigkeit. Eines der furchtbarsten Gefühle überhaupt. So wie Unwissenheit. Unschuld. Angst. Alles vermischt, ist wie ich mich fühle. Und warum? Du.
-J
Filed under: Daily life
“Blue And Cold”
I’ve never felt alone this time of year
In fact I’ve never felt alone
There are moments I could lay down and die
But in these dark times it never hurts to try
What a miracle it’d be if I could see
Just one more breathe escape past your teeth
If I’d of known it was going to be this hard
I would of crawled in the dirt and gone to sleep with you
Your cold blue lips haunt me while I sleep
They find me and remind me
The snow covers your white outline on the street
It almost seems like you weren’t here
I know it’s sad but I walk passed it everyday
It’s the only time I feel anything
Your cold blue lips haunt me while I sleep
They find me and remind me
It’s not blood, it’s not tears that makes you real
It’s the memory you left inside of me
The table set for two
Am I crazy is that crazy?
That I still pour a glass for you
The table set for two
Am I crazy is that crazy?
That I still pour a glass for you
Your cold blue lips they haunt me while I sleep
They find me and remind me
It’s not blood, it’s not tears that makes you real
It’s the memory you left inside of me
Your cold blue lips, they haunt me while I sleep
They find me and remind me
It’s not blood, it’s not tears that makes you real
It’s the memory you left inside of me
Filed under: Puff
going out with my colleagues now. Having some cheap beer and some talks about work again.. Great we like each other:)
-J
Filed under: Daily life
Puh, I feel like I’m getting ill.. I feel stressed out and confused. Had a nice evening and morning with my girls. I simply love them.. That’s just the moment you know, you got the best friends you could ever get.
‘A friend is someone who asks how you are and then waits for the answer’
That’s what we do. And it feels so good, that someone’s finally listenin to your thoughts and fears. It feels like family. Maybe it is…
‘I just want you to know who I am’ -Goo Goo Dolls/Iris
Love that song.. T-20 Days to my final exam.. Maybe that’s the cause for my worries. Wrote tons of applications this afternoon. Let’s see. I hopefully get the job onboard or at any hotel in the greater Nuremberg area.
-a tonight weird J
